I fell hard in love in high school, but I was married to someone else at the time
She fell for me as well, but I was married to someone else at the time
Then we graduated, I divorced, she headed out west
To San Francisco and I moved to Dallas, TX
We kept in touch over all the years, it’s been a lot of years, twenty-five years
Then I got tired of running in circles, she got tired of falling in holes
We talked about it for hours and hours and I thought we should give it a go
So I quit my job and I headed out west
I got a fancy hotel room near her house, chocolates, flowers and a card
Iced down a white bottle of wine, spilled my guts all over that card
Then I got hungry and decided to go eat
I thought before the surprise I would familiarize myself with her territory
I ordered grilled chicken and a steamed veggie plate
Because I was doing my best to lose weight
And wouldn’t you know fate put her right behind
In the booth right behind me, she was with a friend
She told her friend all about me, she told her friend that she had a crush
That it died long ago in her, but in me it hadn’t so much
But she wasn’t concerned, ‘cause I didn’t have the guts
The waiter finally came around to check to see if I needed the check
And for many reasons I couldn’t speak, so I nodded yes
Then she got up to go to the bathroom, the bathroom was right in front of me
I knew upon her return, it would get embarrassing
So I had to think fast on my feet
I had a debit card and a hundred dollar bill
The bill came to twelve eighty-six
I left the hundred on the table and left
‘Cause I had to get out quick
That’s a six hundred and seventy-seven point six percent tip
The service was bad
The food was bad
I went back to the hotel room, ate the box of chocolates
Drank the wine, threw away the card
Put the flowers in the passenger seat of my rented car
Then I looked for a Texaco ‘cause my family wore the star
I saw a girl that was running on empty in similar ways it seemed
I gave her the flowers and tried to get lucky
Just to feel anything
But she didn’t want the flowers and she didn’t want me
I drove all the way back to Texas, I started at ten PM
Listened mostly to conservative Christians, scanning around the AM
I’m not sure I stayed awake, but I made it in
Half-crazy and hallucinating, thirty hour drives tend to do that to you
When the lies finally died, I settled for the truth
I don’t blame you, I don’t blame you
I bit off more than I could chew
I don’t blame you, I don’t blame you
But I still love you
And I have no idea what to do with that
In songs that swing from giant and anthemic to distortion-caked and widescreen, Lightning Cult conjure galaxies of sound. Bandcamp New & Notable Jun 18, 2022